post moulin rouge syndrome

For some reason, the impression i got is that he does it out of lust, out of convenience. and she does it in order to feel needed, to feel a degree of acceptance that she would never be able to find on her own.

and i think i missed her birthday. sometimes i get so absorbed in my own life that nothing else seems to matter.

i know it's wrong and i can't help it. and maybe i don't want to help it. because "it" is finally good...and for the first time in a long time, i can sit here and be content about my situation. and above all, about him.

and then i go and read sisi's diary and realize she and he broke up. 9 months and broken up. god damnit...

sometimes nothing works out...except for a few fleeting smiles and glances.

-g1