there goes the idealism

well gee, i'm taking this better than i expected, having my entire life moving according to some little future i knew would happen because everything fatalistic i predicted comes true but i wish to god that it wouldn't be like this but wanting unrealistically is childish so accept your piece of shit school you don't want to go to and your empty future and your time better spent alone because idealism is meaningless life ain't pretty and itll always be adapt or die so haha none of this will matter another fading memory of what used to be important and even if i never replace this it still won't be important because i know everything passes and i can't live in this f*cking twilight between stages so i kind of wish i went to some third world country or was going anywhere out of this country because i need to make the transition because i hate this limbo. it's funny how i never felt it until now. this summer had potential until you opened your mouth and made me sound naive.