wtf man

i've been apathetic and unable to work since i've returned from break... i have two paintings due next week wed. and then the class finishes up, but i'm not motivated enough to do them... i'm actually the opposite of motivated... it's physically painful, i don't want to do it.

i feel like i'm a little too involved with the "music industry" right now, thinking about logistics and marketing and bids and shit. my dream would have been to be a groupie and follow the tour, not to do real work and have none of the fun. and i guess it isn't that fun, anyhow, i was just younger and more stupid. life has no magic.

argh and some people at my school are such elitist F*CKS i don't understand how they are so f*cking EVIL and hateful i thought intelligent people were supposed to have compassion.