another random feeling (!)

visited "home" this break toured my house the wallpaper torn down someone else's bed in my room new shower curtains disney prints on the walls someone else's gaudy glamor shot photo on the mantle and no plastic candle plug-ins on the windowsills. dreamt about it a month ago. dreamt it the same way. introverted neighbor moved to the colorado mountains, has a dog he got for free. it has a pituitary gland problem costs 50 bucks a month to treat. that was the catch. bathes in the river. bosco is still alive three scratches on his nose or in the dried mucous covering his nose but it peels off, but crusts right over again blind and deaf and a hedgehog sniffing his cancer licking it and foaming at the mouth friend with a 25 year old boyfriend with the toxic yucky face tattoed on his ass cheek weaned off of morphine lollipops she's overweight working for the government timid damaged the complete same but more afraid and nothing changed if i dont believe in time no meat on fridays and all that jazz. "this year is the year the lord will bless us. if i knew what i do now i could have helped you better." "i want to go back to 1995." "no, earlier, before she was in high school." ten years doesn't count new dog too bulky sinks in water straight to the bottom a steel anchor but her bedroom is the same the clown m autographed photograph and swimming medals. blah blah blah. same and dead, frozen corpses perfectly preserved smiles and grass weave shoes. fool on the hill rice filled egg shakers music makers and not impressed with flying.