nightmare

i had really terrible dreams last night, but the only one i remember (besides me vomiting up shit, dying) was that i was falling down the rabbit hole except it was infinite and black and more like an abyss than a portal (it led to nowhere). and that was my real life. everything else was me actively trying to hallucinate. everywhere else i went in my dream, every sensation i had, would eventually dissolve and i'd remember that i am falling through the hole and trapped forever and anything else i sensed was my own, made up distraction.