not again. checked my email. still no response. what to think what to say...nothing...great. denial denial. she's so far away. what did i expect? she's slipping away. or maybe she was never really there and i just thought she was because i never wanted to accept the facts. it was a facade? i made it one if it ever was one. to avoid this empty feeling, this sense of loneliness...that i just can't escape. oh well...must go replace it with food. everything is placated with food...so that's how it's gona be now...
great...
Later
so i called her cell phone, after getting the number from someone...it rang and rang and rang...like always. just like her house...i would call all hours of the night and still no one would answer. her voice message came on. oh that familiar voice. that soothing familiar voice. i left a message. feeling better now.
-g1