juicifruits: yesterday
juicifruits: i told jacob that i love him
cHaRmZgIrL23: and?
juicifruits: and he told me that he loves me
cHaRmZgIrL23: so u must be really happy
juicifruits: and then i floated away
juicifruits: heh, yes indeed
cHaRmZgIrL23: floated away?...
juicifruits: out of euphoria?
cHaRmZgIrL23: describe it
juicifruits: like theres nothing wrong in the world
juicifruits: that you could do anything
cHaRmZgIrL23: awh...
juicifruits: everything...and it wouldnt matter
juicifruits: because he loves you
juicifruits: and thats all that matters..
juicifruits: yep, thats love
cHaRmZgIrL23: heh i hope ur right
juicifruits: yep
cHaRmZgIrL23: so this is serious now huh
juicifruits: it is serious, actually
cHaRmZgIrL23: aren't u like a little apprehensive?
juicifruits: apprehensive?
juicifruits: how so?
cHaRmZgIrL23: it's a hs relationship
cHaRmZgIrL23: that's says a lot in
itself
juicifruits: im not saying its going to last forever
juicifruits: but to love someone doesnt mean its for eternity
juicifruits: but..this guy..he takes all my fears away
juicifruits: like, sure its going to hurt some day..
juicifruits: but for now..its oh so good
it's good to know you have one friend who is happily in love. love ::shuddering:: relationships ::more shuddering:: im too cynical to think it would last. "Buy hope, hope that it lasts.
give in, forget the past.
be strong when things fall apart.
honest, this breaks my heart."-blink.
so she's happy. about a boy. she's in love. in love with the world. i want that. i want love. i want to love someone. but just the thought of it makes me scared.
yesterday i went out with my parents and it was good. i enjoy spending quality time with them. on the way home, sitting in the backseat of my car. i started thinking. thinking bout lost opportunities. those are the worst. b/c it would be my fault for either 1) ruining something good 2) not risking a chance on something good or just 3) being stupid, blind, dumb, and ignoring something good.
ok. well until i grow up and learn that good things don't just come...i'm just gona pretend i didn't think about any of this.
-g1