scum

i wasn't expecting the truth. i asked...in a hypothetical way. "so what do you think about the situation?" and he...he was blunt about it! said exactly what he thought, and i was speechless. not only did it hurt, but worse, he was right. it hit a nerve, too personal. too real. i guess deep down i knew all along, but he...put it into words. sigh** i hate the truth. i prefer this fantasy 'cute' world where people candy-coat their words. be gentle, i'm breaking away. weird. i asked for his honest opinion, and now i regret even asking. knowing too much information is not always the best.

that's why everyone has their own secrets. im sure by now, most of us have a least one deep dark secret that would never be common knowledge. woo...i know mine =ox. so when someone's deep secret somehow makes it's way to my ears, it's... well, it disappoints me. i mean even though i wouldn't have expected better from scum, yet i had hope. i'm not disappointed because he was being stupid and ruining his life, but...for conforming, for fitting the statis quo. "everyone's doing it, i should too". scum. but now a conforming scum. how mindless and pathetic.

~*g1*~

"it's not easy to like you, it's not easy at all"-dashboard