hhhha.

i hate overestimation and naivety and expectancies and ratings and pressures and natural selection, qualifications, mediocrity, disillusionment, and fade-outs. what a freaking great time of year, teaching me how my abilities will never measure up and the rules of jealousy and loneliness. new philosophy: if you don't need me then i don't need you either, such a shame i haven't found a better application for myself than belonging to nothing and no one who cares and such a shame i haven't lived much at all. well screw that. i'm content with being inferior in comparison but i've always hated that priority list so i've decided to rearrange mine to make it more fair. yeah, so much for that selfless bullshit. i need to take a more active role.