whoa. the diary has a new look...... when did this happen?
i decided if i'm still here next year, i'm taking on this school, i'm taking on the man, and i'm going to win. very tired of eating just so i don't waste money. at least.. if i weren't afraid of people, i'd probably do something about it.
haha g1 remember your treadmill that went like 5 mph?
"to not care whether you live or die is to be immortal" - my dream, 3.5 years ago.
god, i'm randomly semi-depressed overly nostalgic and dreading the summer and all this stupid change that has already happened that is going to be shoved in front of my face that i most likely won't be able to deal with. at least i was genuinely happy and i felt like i was a part of something for part of my life. even if i never feel that again. funny how these emotional traumas just accumulate and soon i'll need an intervention.