i wanted a girl or should i say she wanted me

i suddenly have an overwhelming urge to create an visual experience with lights and colors and patterns and motion. i think this was inspired by thoughts of Frog and the Worm, from the play. though probably not appropriately. something really psychedelic. actually, i want to experience it. but i want to make it too. or maybe just control the experience. not that i want to do drugs. because drugs are messy. something clean, aesthetic. sometimes i just want to forget that i have a body.