just moping/complaining

i'm feeling kind of grumpy and stressed out because i'm having a hard time motivating myself to apply to grad school since i know i don't really wanna go. which from everything i've heard is kind of a bad sign and probably means i won't survive. but i know if i don't go i'll end up being really useless because i'm kind of good at that sort of thing.

also somehow my itunes playlist got really mopey in the last week or so, and it's not helping the situation at all.

wah, boohoo, crybaby crybaby. i know. gotta suck it up and deal with it like everyone else. ok, so here goes...