crap.

this break has made me feel old, probably because small children have said things to me such as: "i'm surprised you don't have gray hair." "you're a grown up!" "what's your job?" "are you ronald mcdonald's wife?" and i get to lie and be the easter bunny and watch the parents work all day to entertain the kids and then pass out as soon as they can. i have trouble doing the whole make pretend for them when i'm so freaking anxious and upset about resumes and life after college. i don't want to be a grown up. i'm already nostalgic and i haven't graduated, and i didn't like college that much anyway. fuuuuuuuck.