i should write but writing in circles only leaves me breathless. no use. life's spinning fast and i can't keep up. i'm always late even though i am very anal about time. i hate waiting. i can't transcend. it's all linear for me. stupid american ways.
thinking thinking thinking...wishing...yea time to stop that nonsense. no more going back to childish ways. i'm wiser now, more realistic, defensive...
just don't want to be kicked from the behind and then pushed and laughed at. it's happened before and it can happen again.
i feel someone coming...
-g1