A: what i always do. sit. listen to dashboard. mope.
yea that's always gotten me far. die hope die. die for an eternity. i hate words like linger and stringed and along. i hate it. stop wishing! stop it...it's over! the curtains are shut, and everyone has left...so why am i still sitting there, hoping that it would start all over again?...again...but better...again but actually right this time.
hmph:: i can't always be wrong. but there isn't a next time.--"if the first time around wasn't strong enough, then it wasn't meant to be"--but that quote is about love, and "it was never love. Obviously not" [smirk] but it was something. definately something else. not love, but not quite superficial.
"i need a resolution". i need a closure. goddamnit. i need to get over it all. run away. hide. deny. me: "im over him" others: "ya, and im antichrist".
wait! i've had closures. so many things gone wrong. so many days "get with it or get over it" --New Yr Resolution, after that disappointing outting. when i realized he was a brickwall. but he's not really a brickwall....
and things have gotten so much better. if there wasn't so much tension. so much lingering about the past. so much...guilt. so much awkwardness...if it can all start off fresh, and new and happy and innocent, and...optimistic again. if i can do it all over again...
i'd probably still end up here. moping.
"the world goes 'round and 'round but somethings never change"
**g1**
I am 39% Emo
Hmm.. I should stop listening to Dashboard Confessional.... enough said... Now that I stopped looking at my shoes, I know how the real world looks.