fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me. fool me a third time.. i don't know how it goes.. shame on us both? to hell with us both? sure, sounds good to me. realism, not pessimism... i know the outcomes only because logic comes into play. certain events are inevitable.. the ends are always hanging near.. but i want to be idealistic and upbeat.. i want to ignore disappointments, and be shocked if anything takes a turn for the worse. i'm working on it.. give me another week.. maybe i should try to prevent predictions, instead of standing back and watching them unfold. "this year has a lot of potential." ugggh i'm scared.
grrr!!!! and i'm a stalking failure.. i looked up an old pictue.. and heard the rumors.. and now he's lost his magic. from now on, i'll stay detached from those i admire.. (hehe worship).. yeah. oh well. i want some chilly. the cool kind. back off, bitch. blah. definitely a defense mechanism..